never love anyone that treats you like you’re ordinary

Just like physical therapy, philosophy should hurt you mentally for you’re are rehabilitating your mind with philosophy.

Today's learning: A strong soul is better than good luck. If you strengthen you soul by indifference towards any situation, you can make your own luck.

Alright lesson for today: No one does wrong on purpose. Clearest proof is all the times you did wrong unintentionally. Don't write people off for this reason and cut them some same slack as you would for yourself..

I have accidentally designed to backend to keep me accountable and be regular with journalling. First entry after fixing the backend DB.

I have always thought of you and me as mirrors. And we see ourselves or our own reflection in others. I am not me, yet I am still myself. I am yours regardless of right or wrong. I want to pursue myself…

Beyond all the right and wrong, there is a field. I’ll meet you there.

In quest to find the comfort that I found in your arms.

Love people and use things. The opposite of it is never right.

Target to hit before end of 2026: 18+ pullups in a row

What sort of torture is this? Are these the fruits of my sins? Why am I burning in the flames of melancholy? I know I am broken, I know I have lost myself then why am I not searching for my lost self? Just merely existing with this broken soul

Why am I so vexed at my life? why cant I embrace it again? Why can't I let go of the people that I have lost? The relief that I am looking for is nowhere else but within me... so why am I still searching for it externally?

Somehow my music app has ‘Unbreak my heart’ as my frequently played song instead of happier than ever and I am mad about it

Reminder to be kind to everyone. Everyone’s fighting their own quiet ongoing battle that you have no clue of

Epictetus reminds us to be pragmatic, he wants me to remember that there is no such thing as perfect, all I can do is be a little bit better than yesterday thats the only measure to live my life by.

what is this body if not an attire for soul? what better way to describe this pain if not the quest for your love? Annihilated into shreds of ashes, by this insatiable burning desire.

I gave my two cents to someone special today so I might as well jot it down here.

You cannot appreciate the light if you have not stared into the darkness.

I keep visiting your favourite pizza place in the city. Hoping I get a glimpse of you incase you still visit it. Maybe its my way of just making sure that you’re doing alright.

It is always possible to hold onto your values even when the odd are stacked against it. Don't let the circumstances in your life dictate what values you practice but rather practice the values that you believe regardless of the circumstances in your life. Its within your reasoned choice to make.

Never love anybody who treats you like you’re ordinary.

This quote from OW slapss

Something else to ponder on today.

You’re not what you think, you’re what you hide..

People are so scared to show their true self that they would rather settle for surface level connections and an unhappy life instead of being true to themselves.

Read this somewhere, captivated me for a sec

Today’s mood stats

Humour- 60% Sarcasm- 50% Detached- 72% Vulnerable- 20% Happiness- 30% Empathetic- 70% Spaced out- 80% Flirtatious- 100% as always

Taking too much to impress would often backfire and staying silent is the correct choice in most situations in life…

Did i practice this virtue today? I absolutely did

Dont be emotional but be focused. Only worry about things within my reasoned choice and ignore any emotions that is distracting me and not letting me focus on what needs doing.

If you're pondering how my life's without you? My nights are spent reliving your memories in my head.. I talk to the moon about you for hours while in bed... These nights are lonely without you and my days don't even feel like days anymore.. Lonely heart, broken soul and wonder whats the reason for all this downpour..

you have to be pragmatic and adaptable if you want to find peace and happiness. Telling yourself you need a vacation or visit to a certain place to heal from a relationship or ailment is self deceit at its finest.

I need myself to get into the habit of documenting more so I need to get myself to jot down at least one line per day. It can be anything so just typeeee!!!

You were born perfect, then you start accumulating things and start clinging onto things and make your life imperfect

You are my journey and my destination. Living without my heart is excruciatingly painful. Call it madness or passion or obsession but I want to earn the right to be with you. Living without my heart is agonizingly painful.

This soul and body belongs more to you than me. Any pain that you’ve inflicted is a prized possession. And if we cant be together on this land or the skies, then why dont you meet me at the horizon.

Actually can you take away all the melancholy that’s been lingering since you left? Or at least give me a way to cope with it…

Don't wait for the conditions to be perfect or optimal to start something, be it a new project, change of routine, etc coz starting is the perfect condition.

Happiness follows a U-shaped curve during our lifetime. We are happier when young and old and least happy in the middle i.e. the rest of your life

Never do we experience life more intensely than when we are nearing death. On our death beds, many of us will share the same regrets.... what's going to be my regret? I effin hope there are none.

Whenever anyone refers to Joy in their conversation, what they actually mean is cheerfulness. There’s a big difference between both. Cheerfulness is surface level whereas Joy is a deep state of being which has nothing to do with smiles or laughs. Joy is rather something you achieve from things like your purpose in life, excellence in your skills/field/work you do and fulfilling your duty.

Been feeling a little flat in the mornings lately, not enough recovery, maybe??? Lets put a pin on it and and revisit.

Practice philosophy as a cure for the self. It is the oldest known tool that man has to cure the selfish destructive parts of himself.

Current Habit Stack:

Physical: Working out, Calisthenics, Running

Creative: Side projects like this, Maybe start learning a new instrument?

Something for peace: walking the beach in summer, need to find something for winter

To connect with community: Nothing yet.

To grow: Reading and attempting to be better at it…

Reminder: Be more forgiving and tolerant of others as they may not had the same privileges and advantages that I had

I wonder if she is hurting the same as I am? if she wonders the same and think about where things went wrong? I wonder if Sheldon thinks I am gone, left this world to be reborn.

I miss the touch of her hand, her presence around me and the bedsheets no longer has her pheromones.

this is not a poem and I am not a poet but I feel I am gonna come out the other end as one..

I have finally published this syslog for personal use. I hope this will help minimise clutter and I can get rid of my physical journal and stationery.

First entry has to be about my recent thoughts on Love.

Love stops being love and a reason for sorrow when you attach expectations to it. Love was never meant for receiving and it was always about giving. I now understand why Nat was unhappy with me.

For me love was always about surrender. What exists in love is surrender due to enchantment.

Something else I realised about myself recently. Melancholy runs marrow deep in me. Its a part of who I am, its an attribute for my character in this realm. There is no getting rid of it...

Ever since the breakup, I’ve been haunted by this one fragment, replaying in my head on an endless loop https://youtu.be/5GJWxDKyk3A?list=RD5GJWxDKyk3A&t=157

Late night scribbles

Dont know where that realm is Dont even know if that timeline exists A universe in which my life is not so existentially dissatisfied with me...

I finally decided to build this journal.

I want this to become my digital footprint.